I or WE

"I"
oh! no
its we......
let it be..
lets start with "I"
I just feel the pain
but need
"we" to heal the strain....
why we live with no loss no gain...
why we need to share the pain....

but again someone will say
why i should stay just to portray
as i have no pain and strain
just to prove " no loss no gain" ....

if you could prove
you  are ready to bargain....
then i am ready to bear the loss without the gain.

oh! sory
we gonna bear the loss without gain....

एक आस...!

       ज़िन्दगी  से मै जो खफा खफा सा  रहने  लगा
       मिला   था  कोई यहाँ
       पर वो भी कहीं खोया -खोया सा रहने  लगा
       मासूम था मै कभी
       पर अपनी मासूमीयत से भी महरूम हो  गया
   
 
       पास   बैठी  चिड़िया भी 
       अब पास ना  रह गयी थी
       इस नदिया की धारा
       भी अब चंचल ना रह गयी थी

       बस आस है उस बगीया से
       जिसकी कलियाँ मूझे निहार रही थी .........
      

Thinking Through

sitting behind i thought so deep
where do i belong and where do i keep.

thinking long made me sleep
with my thoughts in my dreams.

puzzled at the end was all i could be
searching amidst the faces ,
a face i wanted to see.

even my sleep couldnt reach to thee 
And
still i sit behind and think equally deep.

sweetness in her charm..

from the dole of doves....
to the farm of cloves.


and from the role of  love
to the charm of  jay...
I could stay whole day
With the realm of  fay…


From  the wheel of the tram
 To the city of bay…
I could feel the sweetness
in her charm..
as long as i stay

bashing brawl...

 Am i alone...

or someone is there to call me upon

but if i am alone..

i am afraid of being thrown..

i am afraid of being blown..

so i asked her '

lets  stroll with the shadow of my soul

bcz i crawl and no one  is with me

 in this bashing brawl...

so lets stroll ...lets stroll...

bcz i am alone.....

i find no reason to celebrate....

she has been so deliberate,
i need something to compensate
but before that i have to find
why does she underestimate
i had never been so passionate
and so now i do repent
on ' why does she met?
i find no reason to celebrate....

cheerful delight

may be i wanna hold her tight..
may be wanna kiss her in the morning light..
may be i wanna be her  cheerful delight.
but i wonder
if she gonna be or not
 if she gonna be through my thought

do i need to be so curious...?

i was so curious..
but i wasn't so serious..
because she was mysterious.
letting my mind uproarious
something was there driving me furious
something was inside me 
hovering and brooding
dwelling and looming
do i need to be so curious...?

i can't explain.....

don't know..
what dragged me to your lane...
being known that i gave you only pain..
but it was needed or not...i can't explain.
i know it was my fault...
but i was not alone who put it to halt

endless walk

i walk...
i walk over miles..
but surrender when she smiles.'
then i just start to wait
.........
wait and wait
just to hold her
just to hug her
 because i know..
gonna get her ...
not just to walk miles...
but to hold her tight and
to keep her always thru my sight.

JUST WID ME.

every day ...at every bay.

u wanna start your day.....


every morning ...every evening.
u wanna sing ...
 JUST WID ME.
आ जा पास दे दूँ तुझे  मै  अपना ये दिल
रूठ  ना  बस एक बार  आ  कर तू  मिल .
मै  जानू  ना  क्यों है ये मुश्किल .

something she never did.

something you never did.
something you never wished.
but now if u have done it..
i know you won't ever loose it.
although you cherish
but you are afraid.
because one day it may perish.
but sory...!
i never knew
one day your something will become everything.

what should i call you

do i know you..?
strolling down the road...
and dwelling upon the thought..
i inquired again ..
do i need to heed so much about.
but it remained dwelling..
at last it went so fast..
and i took a start.
but again one thing remained
unanswered and unsettled,and it was
"what should i call you"

an unknown heat

she was going away...
but i wondered was she going away really?
i was afraid...
will she go away from the door of my heart.
or will i be just left apart.
so i asked her not to .
not to turn back ..
as i was going to hault my beat.
i was feeling nothing under my feet..
was just burning down
in an unknown  heat.................

undefined

i strive..
i strive to draw something
i strive to define something..
bcz i want to confine something
in that drawn boundries
in that defined  regulations.
bcz someone left it undefined.

haulted beat of my heart

i know
the day will come
when the sun will rise...
early in the morning.
straight through my closed eyes
straight through my haulted beat
my skin will not be able to feel its heat
my eyes will not dare to open
right through the sky
bcz at that very moment my soul will fly.
and will you be there to cry?
 

due to some privacy problem ...gonna delete my blog.will return soon with new content.

song of heart

I..
find you in every corner...
with every beat the heart ticks...
I..
ask the god to carry you along...
and so you are the ferry of this song.
tried to move alone..
but you carried me along.

So live with me in every song...
as long as my heart heart ticks along.............

hollowness

silently it came along
holding ,covering and staying for long
i tried to get rid of it
it draped me more under it
running also never helped
hence hands down
i accepted hollowness

a walk

walking behind
the shadow is mine,
yet i feel someone is behind.
walking along
is my own thought,
yet i feel someone holds me along.
walking ahead
is the empty space,
yet i feel the footprints laid.
finally i think m not alone
somebody moves
with the body and soul.

state of mind

i am with a state of mind
with its own kind
although i have put everything behind
hope i could find,
the state of my mind.
with its own kind.'
there is no reason to remain blind..
because the path i am
following, is already defined.

held

why is this a strange face
hovering in mind again and again,
with two perspective at one stay
my eyes look at it today
one shares the thought forgetting every talk,
other drills at words spoken too harsh.
each covering the other at every bay
oh! what a strange face it displays.

The dusky night

strolling down the hills..
with fingers crossed..
playing the tune of my heart ..
The dusky night rides down the sky..
as if going home with me..
with a grinning face ..
asking me to chase..
and cheerful smile.
for a walk of mile.

mist of my mind.

i exist underneath you.is this the gist....or just the mist of my mind.
i breathe beneath you.but your love lies on the crest.which my eyes tells you the rest.

you are just not the best...

but also i don't exist for the rest.

defy.

should i define or
should i defy.
or should u rely
 i have nothing..'
and i won't defy.
i'll be just glaring in your eyes.
its the place where my heart lies.

tadap

aankhe hai nam,
thaher jane do is nami ko.
pighal raha hun har pal,
bhul jaane de teri kami ko.
simta hun mai,
khoya hun mai,
teri yaadon ke aagosh mein....
rota hun, chikhta hun.....
phir bhi khaamosh hun mai........

NEST OF DOVE

i saw,

i saw her and lost,

amidst  the crimson path of 

memory lane..

asked her "do u desire "

or still you are a lier".

she stared at me..

and said "you are the only solitary 

nest of this bird"

"whom i desire and admire".

it seemed it was her

quest for the love.

and i was the nest for this dove.

 

weakness

i  was lying down...
and was carried away
had nothing in my way.
was sleeping
but eyes remained open
throughout the night.
just accompnied by haze ..
and wispy light .
kicked away all my dreams.
sticked with absoluteness.
and so i came to know she is my weakness.

पैमाना

कोई ढूँढ दे वो महफील
जहाँ गूंजे मेरा तराना ....
हम तो गूंजते  हैं  उस
महफील में
जिसे कहते हैं मैखाना ...
है तो ये बस एक बहाना
हमें तो बस है जाम छलकाना
ना  जरूरत है .
ना हसरत है
फिर क्यों है ये पैमाना
निकल जाऊं उस गली में
जिसके लिए छोड़ दिया ज़माना
 
 

ज़माना ......

कोई ढूँढ दे वो महफील
जहाँ गूंजे मेरा तराना ....
कोई ढूँढ दे वो महफील
जहाँ गूंजे मेरा तराना ....
कोई ढूँढ दे वो महबूब
जिसे   पा , छोड़ दूँ ये  ज़माना   ......

crumble

do you need me
or do you exist in me....
won't tremble if u don't ..
won't fumble if u don't...
but whenever you go humble
 i do crumble
i do crumble....
because i exist
and i exist just to keep u here...
else we'll meet there.

Delight.....

Tonight am on height..
with the passion and delight.
and m in no mood to fight.
just  wanna do everything right.
you may cry and ...so i might.
but wanna always in sight,
in the crispy moon light.

haunts

why i move around...?
i know you may fly.
you know,i may die.
but still you hover..
but i know its over.
why don't u wait...?
still its not late .
i know you won't.
you know it haunts...

SHADOW of essence

i was walking away 

with the shadow .

shadow of my heart..

shadow of my essence.

though its the proof of my presence.

i used to loose it in the darkness

but its not my absence.

i exist ...i exist..i exist.

its just the mist.

sparrow.

when  i take a move on her...

the world limits to a point ...

and it is a sight on height..

 not in the night ,

but in the flight of vastness of blueness.

 they think its a foolishness .

but only i know that how

she moves in  galore.

pulling me away from pallor.

मोहब्बत

हम मोहब्बत नही ....
हिफाज़त करते हैं ....
दिल को रख कर बगल ...
उनकी सलामती की  दुआ करते हैं  ....
फ़िर भी हर उस पल उसने किया
बेदखल .......
जिस पल लिख रहा था ग़ज़ल ....
उन्हें क्या खबर...
  हर ग़ज़ल में झलकती
शोखियत है...
ये शिकायत नही .....
मोहब्बत है..

divine

when you can't define
your own divine..
its not worth loving someone
about whom you express
"she is mine"
its not about drawing a line
but its about how you
"make your love shine"

ailing evening

The beautiful evening was on her way,
But suddenly , she was in no mood to move away
She started crying ,and was begging.....
     it was the season of THE MAY.
Then the chirping sparrows
stared, glanced ,smiled.
They snogged, the evening cried hard,
but bosomed the little sparrows,
And then replied,
 "This is the night which
always comes in my way
and takes my love away".
The sparrows stared at each other.
The evening asked the sparrows to help her
And said that please take this letter
to my love.
And moved back to go away,
Before that ,she shed a tear and said
"I am missing you my dear morning........... "

realm of fay....

standing on a  cliff ..

watching far winging feather

the scarlet and softness appeared together

 she asked me to say...

but didn't know  how to portray ...

it was just a  day ...

 of the enchanted realm of fay....

but i wondered

how can be a ferry 

will glance in the light..

although its a stance in the twilight.

आशा

बूंदों के गिरने से ...
खिल उठती थी  वो प्यारी  सी  झील ...
जिसकी  ठंडक से
 मचल जाया करता था मेरा दिल
फूलों की खुशबू में
जिसे बाग़ से चुरा लाया करता था
उस  बाग़ का माली था मैं
बस यूँहीं गया था भूल
और उन  पलों को जो खोता  मैं जा रहा था
रोशन कर पाया उन्हें ,  हटा कर हताशा की धूल....

a walk on the BeAt

i move on the verge...
 but need your beat to surge...


oh! dear..
just give me the beat of your heart...
i'll make this my part...
and i know you never ever will discard.
it will be  the warmth in my land...
because i'll never keep it apart.and will carry u in my hand
.

बचपन ..

भर आया आँखों में आंसू ,
याद  कर  अपना  बचपन ..
क्या था ऐसा भी
वो मेरा कल ?
याद कर रो देता कभी कभी
लगता जैसे   बीता हो ये  अभी अभी.
जाता नहीं कभी नज़र  से   ,ऐसे थे वो  मेरे पल .
माँ की गोद में बीता था वो मेरा कल..
यूँ सोच कर दिल में होती एक अजीब सी हलचल..
की , क्या कभी फिर से लौट कर आयेंगे
वो मीठे मीठे से पल .
हर पल में.... हर दिल के किसी कोने में
है वो बचपन ,
हर याद हर एहसास  में उछलता
है वो बचपन .
हर मोड़  पे  लौटा  है
जिस लम्हा तुमने सोचा ,
क्या लौटेगा वो बचपन  ?

 

DROwning

oh babe..
i have grown nothing...
but i have seen everything ...
i never felt so strong...
i moved all along...
far away...
but don't know which way..
.in you...!
i have been drowning..been falling...
watching the star in the night...
through the eyes of yours..
i have been sneaking....
through the smiles of yours...

believe

watching you....
staring you....
glaring you.....
this is all what i did ....
this is all where i reached...
asking myself how i did....
asking myself how it seemed...
oh! believe me .....
oh! plz hold me...
forever.......forever....

moon

i got all along you...
i lost all inside you...
stared ...n stared all the way just you...
got stucked...
someone drew himself closer to you...
i shoved along...
now i was not in you....
 slept alone
thought i am done....
opened my eyes just in the middle of the night...
glared outside the little open window...
thought you'll be alone ..
watching me...
waiting for me...
but now it wasn't bearable...
it wasn't acceptable.....
still you went on smiling...
you went on shining....
you never spoke...
nor you uttered...
so how you would now...
covered my face...
i shrouded myself....
asked myself who is he....
shouted ....screamed...
oh! something blotched....
its the little star ......
who is so far.....
who is so far.....

 

loser

oh! girl....
i need freedom..
because you give yourself seldom..
please don't come closer....
i don't wanna be a loser....

oh! girl....
just go away...
i will have my own way....
because i don't wanna be a loser....

oh! girl
i need my own space...
please don't give me a chase...
its getting late...just leave this place...
because i don't wanna be a loser....

DOUbt..

i live in a place..
 no one z here to give me a  chase...
no one z here to jolt...
no one z here to  assault...
 i smile with a fear..
no one z here to hear...
no one z here to cheer..
i live in a place...
no one z here to shout...
so i have a doubt.....
so i have a doubt.....

साँझ

ये जो अपने होठों में समां रखी हो समा...
लगती है जैसे लालिमा ...
ये जो आँखों में है तेरा सुरमा...
हर पल है जैसे एक हसीं लम्हा...
इन लम्हों में छुपी उन शाम की यादों में .....
बसा है बस तेरा नाम...

 

TENDER

i was lost
i was lost somewhere..
which i couldn't define..
which i couldn't remember.
it forced me to linger..
am i still so tender..
i wasn't sure enough..
but needed to be tough..
just need a tender glance,
to redefine my stance.

GlorY

holding the air in my hand...
is this like holding  the sand...?
i tried holding both...
both just sneaked away...
but had to choose one
 to hold her memory..
Settled down conclusively
but the strong wind 
eroded me ....and my story....
the sand of memory 
wasn't their in her glory...

a long chase.....

got a coin .....although it was mine..

someone pulled my shirt ..

with a hand having no 'lines' ...

just carrying 'coins'

to count for his fate

his palm was near my hazed eyes

i couldn't speak as

i had a mouth filled with smoke

one of my hand carrying its cause..

and my second hand was all going to be the

countless shine which i can prefigure on

the little kid's face....

all i encountered the change in the state of my 'mind'...

but it wasn't the time to step 'behind'...

just to save a penny for my next 'cigarette'.

although i was standing nowhere to decide his 'fate'...

but i could have been the reason

of a shining 'face' ....

who had a long 'chase'..

and at last i had a deep 'relief'...

because at least i wasn't the reason for his 'grief'.....

 

tears

strolling down in a line staright
told his bearers upright stay
if it came tumbling down sideways
tells the story of quiet pain
whichever way it takes to be
it takes the burden of heart along
never defying its duty to keep
the eyes clear of their thorns
but the reason behind these carriers stay
enough to stimulate another there
both together just tells the tale
of love embedded in every spare
but still the reason behind it hurts
when all time u r responsible for thee
the existence ask the ques again
is this what u were meant to be
is this what u were meant to be

FUll Moon

if i ever get down...
if i ever put myself out...
just be with my thought...
stay with me till there
is the night of darkness ...
just be with my harshness...
it would be your kindness..
because then only i'll be
your full moon ....
and i will bring it soon...
so ........


just be with my harshness...
it would be your kindness..

lost CALMness

oh!
is this the morning i have been waiting for?
came out from the room of darkness...
grinning and snarling..
saw outside with my twinkling eyes..
the twinkling stars were lost ....
but a star with its vastness
was there still near the horizon..
waiting to show his harshness
but for now it was there to redeem the lost freshness..
but was it enough to fill me up with calmness..
that i have been waiting for?
but it was still far enough .
for me this morning was still like the evening..
where i could see that
i was getting pushed away
to lost in the darkness of my snatched calmness..
i am all alone sitting solitary ,
asking myself
is this the morning i have been waiting for?

road of darkness.......

ambling down the road of darkness.......
had started my journey
from the crowd of harshness..
started kicking away the pebbles
scattered down the road side...
it reminded me ...
of what i left behind..
i was carried away with the
thought of its kind..
now i was far away
from the crowd of harshness..
from the road of darkness...
i was in the amid of a kind
was far away
to come out of blindness
now i was far away
from the crowd of harshness..
from the road of darkness...

LIFE DIaries

accepted to all
is something new to happen
i halt and ask
is that me
and the answers are loud
yes its you
i halt and ask is that real
and the smirk replies
believe it to be
i halt and ask is it right
and the air screams
carry it along its meant for you
and then i halt and ask
would it last forever
and
not to my surprise, no one answers
such are life diaries.

NAME

i have been waiting..

waited so long..

to put into something.

that moved me along...

seasons changed...

hazes moved away...

but the reasons remained the same

bcz still i keep on fighting for a name..

that makes my memories fly 

in the far sky...

but down the earth 

it makes me cry..

BELief

she is my own....
and am not alone...
all may come and go
she has come for never to go
all may stand against
she stays with hands fold
repeating it again and again
into my ear
"keep ur belief intact
m urs
and u r not alone".
with that hope i move along
with head high and spirits untold
that no matter
who comes and go
she has come to make it through.

डर

अभी कुछ  खोया  सा   हूँ  तुझमे ,

ठहर जाने दे 

कुछ सोया सा हूँ तुझमे ,

सो जाने दे .

सुरों से पिरो दे इस पल  को ,

कोई राग दे दे इस वक़्त को  

ऐ रागीनी

सो जाऊं इन सुरों के सहारे 

डूब जाऊं तुझमे, इनके सहारे 

करवट बदलूं ना 

कुछ और सोचूं ना

इस  डर से की ,

कहीं खो ना जाए तू इस पल से ...

the wailing wind

i wrote ..
you smiled...

i have my words...
from your smiling world..

you have your moments....
shared from mine...

drifted my boat....
stopped at the instant...
where i could hear ...
someone whined....

i jolted suddenly...
stared around me...

got stuck ...
it was you...

asking for "what made her to whine..."
she held my hand
clutched my arms...
came near me...
screamed...
and wailed
and said.....
"idiot because you were mine......."

DOVE

sitting solitary in the corner of my mind...
was she a faery...?
or was i blind...?
who couldn't figure out her kind....
though i couldn't find....
she was the dove .....
asking me to remind....
who is my love....?
and that i used to follow her behind..

REjoice

let be me your only world...
let be me your only voice...
because i know,
 am gonna be your solitary choice....
because am gonna give your world
sheer  rejoice...

u call it meer selfishness of mind
or my duty behind
but this is the way i have grown to be
with ur never ending beauty

hence nothng else wuld sooth the mind
 unless u
let be me ur only world
let be me ur only voice.

wings

got stuck with her blinking eyes...
staring up the twinkling stars...
got the wings.....
am flying high...
shaded the leaves of
drowning tears....
got the world to come up
with new high....
oh!honey...i got the shadow of yours
in the stirring sun rays...
started firing up the haze...
of my wide open eyes...
its been hurting..
and u keep on crying..

काली घटा

सुन ले मेरी ये पुकार ....

है नही ये ललकार ...

कह रही है मेरे .

जीवन की हृद्यताल ..

वक़्त की चाल में फँसा है

यह माँ का लाल .

डरता फिरता हूँ मै 

इस वक़्त से 

वक़्त में छुपे तूफ़ान से

काली घटाओं के आगोश 

में लिपटे ..

आशुओं के समान ..

कठोर बारीश की बूंदों  से,

सुन ले मेरी ये पुकार ....

है नही ये ललकार ...

कह रही है मेरे .

जीवन की हृद्यताल ...

उम्मीद थी मुझे 

उस पूनम की रात से ...

फिर भी तड़प  थी इस बात से ....

की कहीं काली घटा ....

छीन ना ले जाए ...
इस चन्दा को उसकी रात से ....

EMPTY hands

she grizzled when saw my empty hands,
i drifted myself ...
went close to her..
still she was snarling....
as she was waiting for something ,
which i was deprived of that..
though i had nothing 
with me, i could have given her.
i just closed my eyes...
i was screaking inside ...
moved my hand ...
with fear ...
held her tight....
i slanted her right...
hugged her as she might defy...
she begged not to leave...
placed her lips close to my ears...
wetted me all along my shoulders 
with her tears...
got a divine strength ...
as it was careful witness 
of my cheerful love..without grimness

INSEcurity

i know its roughneck,
being rude.
i know you will take
it the way you always do.
but its not the rudeness....
its not that you are nothing
i always kept on chasing...
but it wasn't worth living..
it wasn't worth living ,
being slanted on you.
it wasn't worth living
as i was afraid of futurity..
that provided me the feeling of insecurity.
this insecurity is
the reason
am not wid you...
beside your beauty.

BRUIsing pain

working on you,  for a while....
crushing on you ...
chasing for a smile....
went away......
back in your lane....
with a bruising pain.....
she came out...with a grinning smile....
waited for a while....
oh! god it wasn't mine....
it was the morning sunshine.....
that took away the grinning smile....

आगोश

गर ये  जो  होता ,

तू ..तू ना मेरा होता ,

रहता मै अकेला ,

ये जो ख़ुशी तेरे होंठो पर नृत्य कर रही है...

क्या, है कोई ये नृत्यांगना ?

पर ,

है ये नही सिर्फ तेरा ,

ये तो पिरोई गयीं हैं 

तेरे और मेरे साँसों की खुशबुओं की मालाओं  से  

गर ये  जो  होता ,

तू ..तू ना मेरा होता ,

तेरा दिल इन खुशबुओं को तरस गया  होता 

माना मै रहता तन्हा...

माना मै रहता खामोश

हाँ पर नहीं रहता तेरा ये  आगोश ....

.

my dreams....nurtured by them..!

i carry my dreams with a desire....
i carry my emotions ...
i carry my questions...
to put my dreams on fire....
my emotions are boundless...
my questions are countless...
i carry my dreams with thier support
they know my emotions
they know my questions...
they are who ..because of them i was figured...
they are who...because of them my dreams were nurtured...
i carry my dreams ....with their tender smile...tender care...

wish i could cry..........

the way of life moves on ,
it just depends on u whether u r not.
every single step is anew ,
it just depends whether u r no .
the people with u move too ahead ,
it just depends whether u r no .
the emotions take a new shape and exist ,
it just depends whether u know r no .
if u ponder hard its such a cruel fact ,
never two have the same feeling intact .
the one who told its never gonna change,
so easily explains its just time u say.
wish i could scream and make my point clear.
wish i could cry and make  my tear hear.
but in this world of unbounded selfishness,
i stand with a limping foot.
hurting again on the hurted end.
making my pains more deeper........
making my pains more clear........

SINHA'S days.....: wish i could cry.....

SINHA'S days.....: wish i could cry.....: whether or no the way of life moves on, it just depends on you whether you are not. every single step is a new it just depends whether...

ज़िन्दगी

ज़िन्दगी  ऐसी ही होती है...
कभी लगती प्यारी है
कभी लगती भारी है
फिर भी कहता रहता हूँ
ज़िन्दगी मेरी सबसे न्यारी है...
ये तो मेरी तेरी यारी है....
जिस से ये दुनिया सारी है
हम तो अकेले हैं...
दूर दुनिया के मेले हैं....

फिर भी कहता रहता हूँ 

ज़िन्दगी मेरी सबसे न्यारी है...

ये तो मेरी तेरी यारी है....

जिस से ये दुनिया सारी है

BEAT

baby i wanna get inside you..
wanna sit inside your heart....
oh!baby m underneath your shadow..
m crying but without sorrow..
just pull me inside your heart 
wanna feel the heat of its beat,
don't be afraid ...
i am yours 
and you are mine'
my words are not of wine"
for me
the faith in you is divine.......

walk

the dazzling evening is now just a 

moment to be remembered .

its the past now...

i am just left wid her name...

i am walking solitary on the road...

thinking of her ...

as long as she gonna sleep

in my heart....

thinkng of my heart z a shoulder 

to keep her head upon..

every step i put forward 

i m afraid

.....

i m afraid ...my shaking step

might force her to wake up...

might force her to wake up.............

धुंआ

हम उस धुएं में कुछ  खोजने को   निकले थे

 हम उस धुएं में कुछ पढने को  निकले थे...

हम उस धुंए में कुछ बनाने को  निकले थे..

हम उस धुएं में कुछ कर गुजरने की चाहत को निकले थे.

जब खोजा तो मिला तकदीर 

जब पढ़ा तो मिला कुछ ऐसा  ......जो कभी पढ़ ना पाया 

जब बनाया हुआ देखा ....तब मिला खुदा का बनाया हुआ तकदीर

और उस तकदीर ने 

कुछ कर गुजरने की चाहत को उसी धुएं में उड़ा डाला 

हम जिस धुएं से ....आस लगाए बैठे थे 

उसी के पास जाने से डरने लगे थे....... 

SAUNTER

the things which need to be explained
the things which need to be overwhelmed
 why i got this half world
why m on the edge of the sword
i got stuck with the word

which need to be explained 

which need to be overwhelmed

why i have been made 

is what i ask the god

there must be a task which

needs to be accomplished

there must be a reason 

i have been grown

SHE z not the reason 

i have been carried so far

there must be a reason....

but never ever YOU.

Nights held

I always have my dreams
in the shadow of her love...
I always have spaces around me
for her..
I always hold my nights
for her...

Always have my morning
through her eyes....
My morning sun is her smile..
U could only find me in her dusky eyes...
U could only find me where she lies...

She gonna be my day when she open her eyes....
Her glowing cheeks gonna be my moon light....
But
I always lose myself
when she holds me tight......

world in my hand.....

world in my hand.....
but its too tough where i stand....
this is pathetic.....
but its not static.....
its dramatic.....
lets hold my hand....
move your feet.....feel the heat...
bcz this world is n my hand....
now its not tough where we stand
its not the house made of sand....
just rock it.....hit the floor...
lets shock the world ...
and wave your hand..

just knock it and
kiss the land....
bcz world z in our hand....

BLESSINGS FOR A BLESSED SOUL

no farewell words were spoken,
no time to say GOOD BYE...
you left us before we knew it
only GOD knows it "why?"
its true that you are NO MORE....
you lived with us only for years FOUR
took family's hard time on yourself alone
and that was the reason to "why....?'
when someone had to sacrifice
you were FIRST ONE TO DIE

रौशन

कभी खाली खाली सा लगे ज़िन्दगी,
फिर भी जीता  जा रहा ,
दर्द को पीता जा रहा.
कभी तो थी उम्मीदों भरी ज़िन्दगी,
इस मायूसी से दूर ..
इस खामोशी से दूर
कभी सोच ले मुझे ,
कभी पुकार ले मुझे,
ऐसी चाहत है मेरे मायूस ज़िन्दगी की ,
खो गया हूँ ,ठहर गया हूँ ....
तेरी पुकार की इंतजार है मुझे
बंद मत कर दरवाजे ,
कुछ रौशनी तो इधर आ जाने दे
रौशन है तेरी दुनिया
मेरी दुनिया भी तो रौशन हो जाने दे.

FEAR

with every passing years i got to fly
chasing fear ...i couldn't lie
thinking of why...i always cry
but you are not the one...who made me cry..
she is the past who made me cry.
it is the wine....forces me not to lie..
but i fear ...if i die..
would you be the one...to shed tears and cry....

presence

With every single word,
you complete my song.
As long as u stay here in my words,
i'll carry you along.

With every season,
with every dawn,
u are the reason , i am not alone.

With every dusk and every night,
you are my lust,
and you always here through my sight.

In the fight with loneliness ,
you always stay side by side..........

nature's she

Glancing down the dusky reddish sky,
i fumbled over her cheeks,
staring over the blueness of the far lying sky,
i went into her glaring eye.

Sinking down
underneath the ocean of her  softness,
i felt the coldness of her lips.
Walking over the solitary lane of her rememberance,
i touched her divine fragrance.
Waiting for the chance of her glance,
i swept into her romance......!!!!!!!

Soul

Barely i touched her,
Barely i remembered her.

Its my soul
who always touches her,
remember her.

Its the eternal love 
that i search in her,
Its the unconscious love
that finds its path
which forces me to knock her soul.

That is why,
Barely i touch her,
Barely i remember her!!

Safar

Zindagi khamoosh thi,
us shaakh par akele baithe koyal ki tarah....
man me umeed ki ek aas thi,
ek din zindagi khil uthegi us koyal ke meethe swar ki tarah.......

meri duniya veeran thi,
par man to hairaan tha
ki is veeran mein bhi koi sath chalne ko razi hai!!

ye humsafar koi shakhs nai hai,
koi insaan nhi,
humsafar to bas wo umeed ki aas hai
jo meri zindagi ke khil uthne ki
rah dekh raha hai.......

delight

u and me in the morning light....
had a life full of delight...
u closed my eyes with your soothing fingers...
standing on a endless height,
had a sight of

 my love
which wasn't so far.....

i hold u tight ...
as u were lingering around...
  ...u went away and away...as the..morning hour..carried away..

... the delight of morning light ...all carried away...

Afsos

Ek ehsas tha
samandar tha,
doobta gaya jinme
mai us khamosh manzar ke sath...
madhosh tha shamaa.......
lafz inki aagosh me samaa gaya.....
afsos is pal mein doob jane ka na thaa....
afsos to is pal ke sath khud ko bhul jane kaa thaa...

Khaamoshiyaan

Khaamoshiyaan aisi ki kar naa sakoon bayaan…..

Bas poochta raha khud se kaisi hai ye duniyaa….

Zindagi aisi ki khud me hi zindaa naa raha….

Aawaargi aisi ki kar naa sakoon bayaan…

Jitni door wo mujhse rahi…..

Utna hi sukoon dil me raha…..

Yaado ko uski mitaana to chaha……par

Khambaqt  dil ki aag ko kaun samjhaaye …..

Ye to jalta raha …..ye to jalta raha……

fight

i had a dream to live but life
wasn't mine
i had a dream to love but she
wasn't mine
i fought wid the life
it taught me a lesson
but to fight wid love
i had no reason.......
i had no reason..............

destiny

हम थे उस राह पर जिसकी मंजिल को हमारी चाहत ना थी
चल रहे थे मगर
आँखों में सपने लिए
इस चाहत में की कहीं तो होगी वो मंजिल
जो हमें ढूँढती फिर रही होगी
था तो ये एक संयोग
की जिस मंजिल को हमारी चाहत ना थी
वो था मेरा मार्गदर्शक
जो जोर जोर से हमें आवाज़ दे रहा था
की
"ऐ हमसफ़र अपनी राह बदल दो"

एहसास

एक एहसास ऐसा जो भुला ना सका
एक प्यास ऐसा जो मिटा ना सका
दूर है सागर का किनारा
दूर है तेरा सहारा
बैठा हूँ उस रेत पर जो जलाता रहा
बस पास है वो सूरज की किरणे जो
दूर उस सागर की बूंदों को सजाता रहा
बैठा हूँ इस उम्मीद में
कभी तो दूर होगी ये सूरज की किरणे
जो मुझको जलाता रहा.....
जो मुझको जलाता रहा.....

bailarina...

she came smiling and grinning...
 i waited for a while.....
my eyes started blinking....
but at last had a smile...
shading leaves of smile....i started sinking....
i had a night.....
but might not right.....
this was a night with sight.....
a sight of lighting corners and sheer smile...
a face with charm....keeping d things warm....
relaxed my self in my arm....

broken ....

From the broken heart

There is sound of wine

And baby its mine.

Its my divine faith in you

Which gives me a  shine..

Although u never  gonna  mine,

Still I always gonna  find  you

In my line of soothing  words.

Its  the  shine  in swords of my words.

hum...tum.

hum.......hum to aise naa the....
tum...tum to mere......hi..the.
hum...hum to naadaan the...
par ab hum badnaam hain.....
aisi ....aisi..kyon ye doori....
kyon ...kyon hain ye majboori....
tum..tum meri ho majboori.....ye..ye dooriyan kyon hain ye jaroori....
hum...hum to tere hi the....hum to aise hi the.....maan lo tum...

...?

aisi .....kaisi hain ye raatein.....
ulghi ulghi baatein....
bheegi bheegi raatein....
meethi meethi yaadein
doob jaaun mai yahan...
tere.....tere saath sochun...
......tere liye sochun.....
par tu ...paas nhi....

LOST

`i lost something....gained nothing..
i had u....i have nothing..
i had boundries...i have nothing..
i had meaning....
i am meaningless...m in darkness...
more or less

`i lost somehing....gained nothing..
i had u....i have nothing..
i am shrinking...and withering
i am fading and shriveling

shaam

jaam chalak aayi jab hum pine lage...

paimaane ne bhi छोड़  diya saath mera...
शाम  महक आई jab hum jine lage...
par jamaane ne bhi  छोड़ diya saath mera...
shaam shaam naa rah gya...
jaam jaam naa rah gaya...
bas rah gaya...akelaapan... aur us akelepan ki mehroom yaadien..
yaadon ne bhi मुह मोड़ liya....
bheegi bheegi aankhon ne to le liya neend kaa sahara
aur hum rah gaye akele aur besahare...
aur hum rah gaye akele aur besahare

khwaaish

rab se meri hai ye itni gujarish
tu ban jaaye itni hai khwaaish
ho jaayegi khushiyon ki baarish'
hogi nhi koi bandish
mai bas phighalta hua tujhe yaad karta raha
teri yaad me yun hi jalta raha
har waqt tujhe dhoondta raha,
rab se meri hai ye itni gujarish
tu ban jaaye itni hai khwaaish
ho jaayegi khushiyon ki baarish'

its mighty

sitting beside u i liked u d most,
saw myself in u, when looked into ur depth.
played wid u....smiled wid u...
i saw myself smilimg when again looked into ur depth,
thought u would be my mirror.
thought ur step will be mine.
thought i can play wid u.
touched u ...i smiled it gave me a soothing feeling.
but got lost wid ur soothness....
i forgot ur hrshness...
i forgot i can sink in ur depth
i forgot u can snatch me from my destiny
u can make me reach to d hell....
forgot ,ur wave can threw away from my recognition...
i was wrong i felt atlast....i did try to play with mighty water......

payal

hum chal rahe the un sooni galiyon me

jinme jhalak aati hain kisi ki tasveer

tasveer kisi darpan me to nhi 

par uski jhalak un raaho par hai

jispar kabhi pairo me bandhe payal ki jhankaar 

kaano ko chu kar man ko tript kar deti thi,

ab to sirf kaano me gunjti hai un payalo ki jhankaar...jinse hamari umeede bandhi thi..