INSEcurity

i know its roughneck,
being rude.
i know you will take
it the way you always do.
but its not the rudeness....
its not that you are nothing
i always kept on chasing...
but it wasn't worth living..
it wasn't worth living ,
being slanted on you.
it wasn't worth living
as i was afraid of futurity..
that provided me the feeling of insecurity.
this insecurity is
the reason
am not wid you...
beside your beauty.