moon

i got all along you...
i lost all inside you...
stared ...n stared all the way just you...
got stucked...
someone drew himself closer to you...
i shoved along...
now i was not in you....
 slept alone
thought i am done....
opened my eyes just in the middle of the night...
glared outside the little open window...
thought you'll be alone ..
watching me...
waiting for me...
but now it wasn't bearable...
it wasn't acceptable.....
still you went on smiling...
you went on shining....
you never spoke...
nor you uttered...
so how you would now...
covered my face...
i shrouded myself....
asked myself who is he....
shouted ....screamed...
oh! something blotched....
its the little star ......
who is so far.....
who is so far.....

 

loser

oh! girl....
i need freedom..
because you give yourself seldom..
please don't come closer....
i don't wanna be a loser....

oh! girl....
just go away...
i will have my own way....
because i don't wanna be a loser....

oh! girl
i need my own space...
please don't give me a chase...
its getting late...just leave this place...
because i don't wanna be a loser....

DOUbt..

i live in a place..
 no one z here to give me a  chase...
no one z here to jolt...
no one z here to  assault...
 i smile with a fear..
no one z here to hear...
no one z here to cheer..
i live in a place...
no one z here to shout...
so i have a doubt.....
so i have a doubt.....

साँझ

ये जो अपने होठों में समां रखी हो समा...
लगती है जैसे लालिमा ...
ये जो आँखों में है तेरा सुरमा...
हर पल है जैसे एक हसीं लम्हा...
इन लम्हों में छुपी उन शाम की यादों में .....
बसा है बस तेरा नाम...

 

TENDER

i was lost
i was lost somewhere..
which i couldn't define..
which i couldn't remember.
it forced me to linger..
am i still so tender..
i wasn't sure enough..
but needed to be tough..
just need a tender glance,
to redefine my stance.

GlorY

holding the air in my hand...
is this like holding  the sand...?
i tried holding both...
both just sneaked away...
but had to choose one
 to hold her memory..
Settled down conclusively
but the strong wind 
eroded me ....and my story....
the sand of memory 
wasn't their in her glory...

a long chase.....

got a coin .....although it was mine..

someone pulled my shirt ..

with a hand having no 'lines' ...

just carrying 'coins'

to count for his fate

his palm was near my hazed eyes

i couldn't speak as

i had a mouth filled with smoke

one of my hand carrying its cause..

and my second hand was all going to be the

countless shine which i can prefigure on

the little kid's face....

all i encountered the change in the state of my 'mind'...

but it wasn't the time to step 'behind'...

just to save a penny for my next 'cigarette'.

although i was standing nowhere to decide his 'fate'...

but i could have been the reason

of a shining 'face' ....

who had a long 'chase'..

and at last i had a deep 'relief'...

because at least i wasn't the reason for his 'grief'.....

 

tears

strolling down in a line staright
told his bearers upright stay
if it came tumbling down sideways
tells the story of quiet pain
whichever way it takes to be
it takes the burden of heart along
never defying its duty to keep
the eyes clear of their thorns
but the reason behind these carriers stay
enough to stimulate another there
both together just tells the tale
of love embedded in every spare
but still the reason behind it hurts
when all time u r responsible for thee
the existence ask the ques again
is this what u were meant to be
is this what u were meant to be

FUll Moon

if i ever get down...
if i ever put myself out...
just be with my thought...
stay with me till there
is the night of darkness ...
just be with my harshness...
it would be your kindness..
because then only i'll be
your full moon ....
and i will bring it soon...
so ........


just be with my harshness...
it would be your kindness..

lost CALMness

oh!
is this the morning i have been waiting for?
came out from the room of darkness...
grinning and snarling..
saw outside with my twinkling eyes..
the twinkling stars were lost ....
but a star with its vastness
was there still near the horizon..
waiting to show his harshness
but for now it was there to redeem the lost freshness..
but was it enough to fill me up with calmness..
that i have been waiting for?
but it was still far enough .
for me this morning was still like the evening..
where i could see that
i was getting pushed away
to lost in the darkness of my snatched calmness..
i am all alone sitting solitary ,
asking myself
is this the morning i have been waiting for?

road of darkness.......

ambling down the road of darkness.......
had started my journey
from the crowd of harshness..
started kicking away the pebbles
scattered down the road side...
it reminded me ...
of what i left behind..
i was carried away with the
thought of its kind..
now i was far away
from the crowd of harshness..
from the road of darkness...
i was in the amid of a kind
was far away
to come out of blindness
now i was far away
from the crowd of harshness..
from the road of darkness...

LIFE DIaries

accepted to all
is something new to happen
i halt and ask
is that me
and the answers are loud
yes its you
i halt and ask is that real
and the smirk replies
believe it to be
i halt and ask is it right
and the air screams
carry it along its meant for you
and then i halt and ask
would it last forever
and
not to my surprise, no one answers
such are life diaries.

NAME

i have been waiting..

waited so long..

to put into something.

that moved me along...

seasons changed...

hazes moved away...

but the reasons remained the same

bcz still i keep on fighting for a name..

that makes my memories fly 

in the far sky...

but down the earth 

it makes me cry..