NAME

i have been waiting..

waited so long..

to put into something.

that moved me along...

seasons changed...

hazes moved away...

but the reasons remained the same

bcz still i keep on fighting for a name..

that makes my memories fly 

in the far sky...

but down the earth 

it makes me cry..

BELief

she is my own....
and am not alone...
all may come and go
she has come for never to go
all may stand against
she stays with hands fold
repeating it again and again
into my ear
"keep ur belief intact
m urs
and u r not alone".
with that hope i move along
with head high and spirits untold
that no matter
who comes and go
she has come to make it through.

डर

अभी कुछ  खोया  सा   हूँ  तुझमे ,

ठहर जाने दे 

कुछ सोया सा हूँ तुझमे ,

सो जाने दे .

सुरों से पिरो दे इस पल  को ,

कोई राग दे दे इस वक़्त को  

ऐ रागीनी

सो जाऊं इन सुरों के सहारे 

डूब जाऊं तुझमे, इनके सहारे 

करवट बदलूं ना 

कुछ और सोचूं ना

इस  डर से की ,

कहीं खो ना जाए तू इस पल से ...

the wailing wind

i wrote ..
you smiled...

i have my words...
from your smiling world..

you have your moments....
shared from mine...

drifted my boat....
stopped at the instant...
where i could hear ...
someone whined....

i jolted suddenly...
stared around me...

got stuck ...
it was you...

asking for "what made her to whine..."
she held my hand
clutched my arms...
came near me...
screamed...
and wailed
and said.....
"idiot because you were mine......."

DOVE

sitting solitary in the corner of my mind...
was she a faery...?
or was i blind...?
who couldn't figure out her kind....
though i couldn't find....
she was the dove .....
asking me to remind....
who is my love....?
and that i used to follow her behind..

REjoice

let be me your only world...
let be me your only voice...
because i know,
 am gonna be your solitary choice....
because am gonna give your world
sheer  rejoice...

u call it meer selfishness of mind
or my duty behind
but this is the way i have grown to be
with ur never ending beauty

hence nothng else wuld sooth the mind
 unless u
let be me ur only world
let be me ur only voice.

wings

got stuck with her blinking eyes...
staring up the twinkling stars...
got the wings.....
am flying high...
shaded the leaves of
drowning tears....
got the world to come up
with new high....
oh!honey...i got the shadow of yours
in the stirring sun rays...
started firing up the haze...
of my wide open eyes...
its been hurting..
and u keep on crying..

काली घटा

सुन ले मेरी ये पुकार ....

है नही ये ललकार ...

कह रही है मेरे .

जीवन की हृद्यताल ..

वक़्त की चाल में फँसा है

यह माँ का लाल .

डरता फिरता हूँ मै 

इस वक़्त से 

वक़्त में छुपे तूफ़ान से

काली घटाओं के आगोश 

में लिपटे ..

आशुओं के समान ..

कठोर बारीश की बूंदों  से,

सुन ले मेरी ये पुकार ....

है नही ये ललकार ...

कह रही है मेरे .

जीवन की हृद्यताल ...

उम्मीद थी मुझे 

उस पूनम की रात से ...

फिर भी तड़प  थी इस बात से ....

की कहीं काली घटा ....

छीन ना ले जाए ...
इस चन्दा को उसकी रात से ....

EMPTY hands

she grizzled when saw my empty hands,
i drifted myself ...
went close to her..
still she was snarling....
as she was waiting for something ,
which i was deprived of that..
though i had nothing 
with me, i could have given her.
i just closed my eyes...
i was screaking inside ...
moved my hand ...
with fear ...
held her tight....
i slanted her right...
hugged her as she might defy...
she begged not to leave...
placed her lips close to my ears...
wetted me all along my shoulders 
with her tears...
got a divine strength ...
as it was careful witness 
of my cheerful love..without grimness

INSEcurity

i know its roughneck,
being rude.
i know you will take
it the way you always do.
but its not the rudeness....
its not that you are nothing
i always kept on chasing...
but it wasn't worth living..
it wasn't worth living ,
being slanted on you.
it wasn't worth living
as i was afraid of futurity..
that provided me the feeling of insecurity.
this insecurity is
the reason
am not wid you...
beside your beauty.

BRUIsing pain

working on you,  for a while....
crushing on you ...
chasing for a smile....
went away......
back in your lane....
with a bruising pain.....
she came out...with a grinning smile....
waited for a while....
oh! god it wasn't mine....
it was the morning sunshine.....
that took away the grinning smile....

आगोश

गर ये  जो  होता ,

तू ..तू ना मेरा होता ,

रहता मै अकेला ,

ये जो ख़ुशी तेरे होंठो पर नृत्य कर रही है...

क्या, है कोई ये नृत्यांगना ?

पर ,

है ये नही सिर्फ तेरा ,

ये तो पिरोई गयीं हैं 

तेरे और मेरे साँसों की खुशबुओं की मालाओं  से  

गर ये  जो  होता ,

तू ..तू ना मेरा होता ,

तेरा दिल इन खुशबुओं को तरस गया  होता 

माना मै रहता तन्हा...

माना मै रहता खामोश

हाँ पर नहीं रहता तेरा ये  आगोश ....

.

my dreams....nurtured by them..!

i carry my dreams with a desire....
i carry my emotions ...
i carry my questions...
to put my dreams on fire....
my emotions are boundless...
my questions are countless...
i carry my dreams with thier support
they know my emotions
they know my questions...
they are who ..because of them i was figured...
they are who...because of them my dreams were nurtured...
i carry my dreams ....with their tender smile...tender care...

wish i could cry..........

the way of life moves on ,
it just depends on u whether u r not.
every single step is anew ,
it just depends whether u r no .
the people with u move too ahead ,
it just depends whether u r no .
the emotions take a new shape and exist ,
it just depends whether u know r no .
if u ponder hard its such a cruel fact ,
never two have the same feeling intact .
the one who told its never gonna change,
so easily explains its just time u say.
wish i could scream and make my point clear.
wish i could cry and make  my tear hear.
but in this world of unbounded selfishness,
i stand with a limping foot.
hurting again on the hurted end.
making my pains more deeper........
making my pains more clear........

SINHA'S days.....: wish i could cry.....

SINHA'S days.....: wish i could cry.....: whether or no the way of life moves on, it just depends on you whether you are not. every single step is a new it just depends whether...

ज़िन्दगी

ज़िन्दगी  ऐसी ही होती है...
कभी लगती प्यारी है
कभी लगती भारी है
फिर भी कहता रहता हूँ
ज़िन्दगी मेरी सबसे न्यारी है...
ये तो मेरी तेरी यारी है....
जिस से ये दुनिया सारी है
हम तो अकेले हैं...
दूर दुनिया के मेले हैं....

फिर भी कहता रहता हूँ 

ज़िन्दगी मेरी सबसे न्यारी है...

ये तो मेरी तेरी यारी है....

जिस से ये दुनिया सारी है

BEAT

baby i wanna get inside you..
wanna sit inside your heart....
oh!baby m underneath your shadow..
m crying but without sorrow..
just pull me inside your heart 
wanna feel the heat of its beat,
don't be afraid ...
i am yours 
and you are mine'
my words are not of wine"
for me
the faith in you is divine.......

walk

the dazzling evening is now just a 

moment to be remembered .

its the past now...

i am just left wid her name...

i am walking solitary on the road...

thinking of her ...

as long as she gonna sleep

in my heart....

thinkng of my heart z a shoulder 

to keep her head upon..

every step i put forward 

i m afraid

.....

i m afraid ...my shaking step

might force her to wake up...

might force her to wake up.............

धुंआ

हम उस धुएं में कुछ  खोजने को   निकले थे

 हम उस धुएं में कुछ पढने को  निकले थे...

हम उस धुंए में कुछ बनाने को  निकले थे..

हम उस धुएं में कुछ कर गुजरने की चाहत को निकले थे.

जब खोजा तो मिला तकदीर 

जब पढ़ा तो मिला कुछ ऐसा  ......जो कभी पढ़ ना पाया 

जब बनाया हुआ देखा ....तब मिला खुदा का बनाया हुआ तकदीर

और उस तकदीर ने 

कुछ कर गुजरने की चाहत को उसी धुएं में उड़ा डाला 

हम जिस धुएं से ....आस लगाए बैठे थे 

उसी के पास जाने से डरने लगे थे....... 

SAUNTER

the things which need to be explained
the things which need to be overwhelmed
 why i got this half world
why m on the edge of the sword
i got stuck with the word

which need to be explained 

which need to be overwhelmed

why i have been made 

is what i ask the god

there must be a task which

needs to be accomplished

there must be a reason 

i have been grown

SHE z not the reason 

i have been carried so far

there must be a reason....

but never ever YOU.